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I'll be adding more of them tomorrow to my port. So watch out for those! I will also finally be talking about Dan, and the trip to WI.



I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow... wish me luck on finding out why I've been so sick for so long.

I find my anger growing with every moment. I'm too strong to be hurt by someone again. This will all fade and I will become strong, never touched or bothered by another man.



The Letter to Daniel:







What the fuck is going on with you lately? I'm not going to be nice and take this in stride anymore. You won't answer my IM's, you won't talk to me, and you act like I'm not even here. Are we over, or what? I wasn't expecting this to happen like 6 days after we start going out. I want some answers, I don't like being treating like a piece of shit, and I thought you said you weren't going to do this shit anymore. You never came back that night, and we haven't even talked in 4 days. If you really do love me, why do you do this to me? I'm so tired of being hurt... I just wish you could understand that. I don't need this to turn into the same thing that happened with Joey. I don't want to get attached to you again if I'm just going to get hurt. That's all I wanted to say and if you actually read this maybe you should take the time to send a message or two to your supposed girlfriend.







Now what will this change, anything?

I'm tired of you and all the shit and drama you always bring around. For some reason you don't know how to pick up a goddamn phone and tell me that you're still alive. You don't answer my IM’s; you don't even send a message. Figure out what the fuck you want and keep it that way for once! Stop changing your goddamned mind on if you want me or not.



You make all these promises and you tell all these lies just to get me. It's almost funny how much of Joey I do see in you.



If only I could have your word, and it would still mean something. Maybe one of these day's I'll snap and you won't be aloud to run rampant in my life. All I ever did was to love you.



The night I said yes you told me you could never take back all the pain you caused me and how sorry you were. But right now you're just making it worse, do you know how bad I'm hurting right now? Do you know what you're doing to me?



Not like you'll ever read this anyways, just like you don't know how to read goddamned emails.



Maybe one of these days's you'll learn to pick up the damned phone and give me a fucking call. Or maybe you'll read this and understand how fucking not okay I really am with you and with the world right now.

New Years was actually really good this year, which was a little surprising. I had Tracea aka my bestest bud ever; over for the night, and her mom came over too to hang out with my mom. So we watched movies till midnight and snacked our asses off. Then I fixed all the codes on her Myspace page. Also made a resolution, and that is for us to each lose 30 pounds this year. We’re going to get memberships to the YMCA, and go work out almost everyday after school. (Wish me luck on that one!) We watched the count down and drank a little with our parents. Then we took a bunch of pictures; seriously we took almost 300 photos. That’s what happens when you get together with a person that’s just as picture crazy as you are. We stayed up so late, we finally crashed at about 6 or 7 and didn’t wake up till like 5ish. So we’re supposed to hang out tomorrow and go to the mall. It was actually a nice quiet New Year’s and it was really needed.



I’ll be sure to post all the pictures soon but for now here are a few:































Real soon here I will also talk about the trip to Wisconsin… I’ve been putting off that rant. But I’ll do it either tonight or in the next couple of days. Also gonna be doing some new things to my page so look for that. So see you in the next journal entry.



Happy New Years and luck with them resolutions!